I wish I knew why, it doesn't feel quite the norm
I'm not even sure where my fingers and mind will lead me tonight
Giving control up, I have no might
Today I found an old notebook full of aged prayers and sour dreams
They reminded me of the person I once was, or seemed to be
I was scared and thought I was alone
I prayed to a God who I questioned, to give me a home
I wasn't sure who or how to trust
I just knew that eventually I must
What is a life full of lies and deceit?
I'll be the first to describe it, I was in the driver seat
Headed toward a hell far too real
Stepping on the pedal, falling into layers of pain that would be hard to heal
I look back and see myself speeding to a vast nowhere
I look forward and see the person I always wanted to be there
It wasn't anything that I did to get to where I am now
Living and breathing in the moment, a peace I have endowed
Healed of the wounds of my past
Led to an eternal life that will forever last
